Another day...another day.

it's all the same.

a break from the technology.
tutus in the closet and a full pack of rainbow cigarettes by my side.
boys in and out of the picture. none with much staying power.
taking the stage. the center of attention.
then fleeing the moment I step down.

it's how i am configured.
And how I am content.
It seems to just be hard for anyone else to deal with.
But does it really happen to matter?

 

 

I also happen to be really excited to wear a new tutu for Creem City's show on Friday the 13th @ The Morgue.

brien o.

how i love thee.

we decided to have a reality show.

i figured out the logistics.

now someone just needs to pick it up and love us. ha!

i mean glam rock, sex appeal, and reality tv. the american public would drool.

 

You have 20 - 30 designers in the beginning and they create outfits for the band (or lead singer) in the category of a theme: think extreme and bizarre like Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Semi Precious Weapons, etc. The designs are then voted on in categories of wearability (both on and off stage), sex appeal, durability, and others tailored to concert attire. Throughout the season of the show the designers would be coming up with their ideas for the final piece.

The four remaining designers would compete for the position as stylist to the band (or lead singer) to accompany them on tour (possibility for season two: the stressors of being a stylist on tour…not just dealing with coming up with new outfits, but dealing with the drama of the band and surroundings), to dress them for photoshoots, to prepare regular designs for the band complete with accessories, to tailor designs according to the band member’s personalities, etc. The four final outfits would be judged by the band/lead singer wearing the designs on stage in four separate concerts. The design that suits the stage the best, holds up during the show, and is deemed the most bizarre and spectacular by the singer is the winner.

 

and brien does the hair. and i keep the outfits.

i make myself laugh. a girl can dream, right?

really?

can you even see them? no.

and it's really starting to scare my poor little puppy.

but oh well. i've had one too many stella's anyway.

4th of july is general a lot of fun and a lot of loud noises.

might as well start before the sunsets.

 

playing a show in portland tomorrow with the shy ones.

yyeeeaah! be there.

and Creem City has several Seattle shows coming up...you better be there.

 

it's been a crazy few days.

and a lot of "you're not the love of my life...just the love of tonight" happenings.

rachel understands.

it's odd.

the one i miss...is the one that is far away and probably not the right match for me.

you never know.

 

 

xo

summer plansssss Warped - no. Creem City - yes.
I realized that I had made a commitment to my band and need to follow through with such things.
So that being said - aside from y'all getting to see my in Cali.
If you all happen to be in the Seattle area - we'll be playing some acoustic shows.
And you should be excited about such things!
Cause I am.
Jun 22 2009 8:00P @ Central Seattle, Washington
Jun 26 2009 7:00P @Dreamstreet Ocean Beach/San Diego, California
Jun 28 2009 7:45P @ The Viper Room Los Angeles, California
Jun 29 2009 8:00P @ Slidebar Fullerton, California
Jul 2 2009 8:00P @ The Charleston (All Ages) Bremerton, Washington
Jul 11 2009 8:00P @ The Bit w/ Blue Ribbon Boys and the Pranks Seattle, Washington
Jul 21 2009 8:00P @The Comet - (acoustic) Seattle, Washington
Aug 15 2009 8:00P @ Laughing Ladies Cafe (all ages - bar with id) Seattle
Sep 12 2009 7:00P @ The Lab (all ages) Seattle, Washington

So if you're gonna be out - be sure to stop by and say hello!
Don't be a stranger.
We might even have a photobooth at our shows.
Oooohhh lala! sheROCKS will still be happening.
So I'll see you every Thursday @ 5pm on stickam. com/sugarhooker.
But clearly you know that drill already.

What do your summer plans look like?

xo

how today is beautiful.

how you traveled across the country

and how you are already leaving.

how my band is playing the Viper Room on June 28th.

how my new blue flats hurt my feet.

how you should read the rest: http://pnkrckdoll.blogspot.com/2009/05/lets-discuss.html

watching neverending story.
and drinking cider.
this movie is so uber different from the book.
silly hollywood magic.
that is film magic.
because the actual hollywood i love and miss.

its been a long day today.
no dimissals.
and no peanut butter and jelly shots.
although those were amazing.

it's been a fairly word filled day today.
never a bad thing.
reflection and silence do a body good.
or at least a mind anyway.
reconnected with some old friends i have missed.

check this shiz out:

http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-9839-Seattle-Local-Music-Examiner~y2009m5d1-The-Insurgence--Punk-in-Seattle
http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-9839-Seattle-Local-Music-Examiner~y2009m5d7-Girls-Rock-Just-As-Hard-As-Guys

been listening to a lot of random led zep
motley crue
leadbelly
ryan adams
howlin' wolf
no one said it went well together
did i?

band practice tomorrow...i think?
and going over the mixes of the songs we just recorded.
hopefully the rain stops!
and playing the central on Saturday.
ya best be there.
or else...
or else....
who knows.
you'll just be another bean.

xo

definitely still sick. but interviewing brightwood @ the skylark cafe today. it'll be streamed @ stickam. com/sugarhooker. so be sure to tune in for that at 6pm. you can witness my terrible sick voice. hahaha. goodness. then it will be back to bed for me. i love to drink lots and lots of tea when i am sick. what is your illness remedy? xo

just can't get away from the sleaze of it all.

so you should listen to creem city.

maybe this will work.

maybe.

i've been traipsing around seattle and loving it.

if you are around you should come join in on the antics and the chaos.

yes indeed.

boys have been coming and going, but as usual i don't trust a word they say or a breath they gasp.

prove yourself.

and look outside. it is a lovely sunny day in this rainy state.

i'll see you april 21st @ el corazon with eddie and the hot rods.

 

who should i interview next for shetv? i want to know who you want to see!!

 

xo

I have my column to write and finish shortly. ha. haven't started.
Creem City is playing with Semi Precious weapons this Monday...excited am I?
bleaching my hair right now - so that it is stage worthy. goodness.
This week we played a show at the funhouse on wednesday instead of practice.
So basically people had to pay to watch us practice.


Odd concept.
And Elyza, Lexy, and I have been doing nothing but causing trouble.
And finding cute boys with whom to cause trouble...not ones that question the headband.
Not acceptable.
What have you been up to?

xo

Started writing an all ages column for the Tacoma Volcano. I feel like Carrie but with a musical background. Hell, I even have the curly hair for it.

Working hard on my show with SHEtv - interviewed Amber Pacific with that last week. So I've been weeding through entries and seeing what's going on with new bands. It's an interesting transition going from in print to people seeing me on camera. Very odd. You're not supposed to see me ask the questions. ha.

Playing with the new band - myspace.com/creemcity - check it out if you haven't yet. Add. Say hello. We just had a photoshoot recently. It's good stuff. I promise. Creem City will be in an alleyway near you sometime soon.

And currently watching Almost Famous like it's  a new religion. Oh how I love this movie time and time again.

Broke up with the boyfriend. That was difficult. But when it comes down to it you have to realize that no one ever knows you as much as you want them to or want to think they do. A tough realization but a truth nonetheless.

Enjoy!

And say hello once in a while. I miss you all.

xo

__________________________________________________________

I’m scared to go to sleep for dreaming
For fear I’ll lean into you but give you nothing but the crown of my head
It is all I can give you without giving up and giving in.
All I can bare without baring all.
Perhaps I can learn to live without
Perhaps I already have
But whether I am content with this realization is what has yet to be seen
With its false colors and true fabrications
Too easy to lie but too difficult to make anything up
I hold on
Only to find my grasp slipping and you running three paces behind

until you find comfort.
and where you belong.
vs. where you want to be.
maybe we're all still figuring that out.
maybe we're all continually ignoring it.
so live life the way it feels good.
in a way it doesn't hurt others.
and in a way that you can wake up every morning and be happy with who you are and who you are to others.



different images reflect different things to everyone.
these represent comfort to me.
not necessarily a blind comfort.
just one of loyalties and importance.
of solidarity.

the fact that where my foot falls.
theirs will be right there beside mine.
whether we are in spot 8 - or the undesirable spot 9.

whether i am miles away
hours away
minutes away
or what sometimes feels like a lifetime.
and for this i am glad and grateful.

xo

sometimes random gay men yell "damn" at me in the street.

apparently i give them weird looks.

which follows to them telling me i am gorgeous.

ha.

and i bought a fabulous pleather miniskirt today.

just can't go wrong.


headed to the troubadour in a bit - the start and the ringers.

so come out say hello...you know.. the usual.

after the show.

maybe burg. or ritual.

who knows.

but i'm kind of hard to miss either way.


:)


and if you are seattle - you should be at that show on feb 7th. no exceptions.


xo

with fall from grace!!

Express Yourself LIVE

so...
my webshow will start this thursday at 5pm...on stickam.
see you there?


basically...it will be an hour of fun. you can bet on that.

other than that. things have been going smoothly and fairly unexcitingly.
hmmm.
i don't mind being boring every now and again.

xo

my snowy backyard. somehow my house in washington got dumped with a foot and a half of snow. this california girl so didn't know how to handle it. :)
so I have stayed indoors and written. and nailed down the specifics of my sugarhooker show.
and made cookies.  mhmmm.
 
yummmy. i shall decorate them now.
tomorrow it will be back to being busy - once the snow melts a bit and i can actually get out of my driveway.
xo

can seem neverending.
and usually turn into sleepless nights
laden with insomnia and tossing.
oh well.
definitely used to it.


xo

check out this review for my book:

http://licorice-pizza.blogspot.com/2008/11/tattooed-pierced-and-fucked-up.html

and if you haven't yet...check out my book:

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A memoir riddled with music and friendship: this collection of anecdotes, interviews, and general musings details the life of music journalist, Lauren Napier, over the course of two years. Open up the pages and bask in a sharp look at the music industry and its inhabitants. From the coast of California, to the desert of Las Vegas, and the landscape outside those barriers Lauren travels with a band of friends and associates.
There are interviews with Motion City Soundtrack, Bullets and Octane, The Matches, Bleed the Dream, and many others!
Check out myspace.com/rocknrollreading for more info.

xo.

Basically.
here are some of the unedited photos - enjoy. :)
they came out pretty well - i'll have some finished one in a few days.
but thought i would put these up so you could see.


ha. so enjoy.


bonnie rae mills is a wonderful photographer.

tomorrow shall be gloomy and rainy

but will be brightened with a photoshoot on an island!

and sycamore meadows has been the perfect soundtrack for the last couple days. listen to it. :)

i'm off for now...quite sleepy. but i will write more tomorrow.
promise.

xo

neon lights and plastic emotions
a paved street of confusion
fall down the forty-four floors
to find your peace of mind - or the pieces
whatever is left after your wreck of a life
perhaps death is our final act of a life not lived
our brains giving up on finding any sort of meaning
our organs failing at pumping our rich blood into the veins of society's lay-abouts
our eyes tired of searching for a new direction or adventure and only finding a one-way street
our lungs tired of breathing the same stale air of failed desires
so we rest in a dark alley way filled with the destitute and emotionally penniless
mothers and fathers, brothers and sister, whores and carpenters, and candlestick makers...all curled up in the safety of a fetal position and inhaling the smoke of human waste and pollution
light the match and burn the imaginations of a thousand
a mission
a lifetime of murdered
of forgotten children